men in mascara always run.

woooooooooooooooooooooow i havent blogged in foreveerrr. i read all my blogs and a lot has changed. first, I dont have a boyfriend anymore. hahaha. in my first blog I was dating a kid named spencer... then in my last blog i was in a tought decision, about another boy, Dylan. I broke up with spencer for dylan. but both of those boys are eeeeeeeeeeeeewwwwwwwww now and i regret it. but now im onto someone else...... :) Ill let you know how that gooeesss.

a very very hard decision.

im in one of the toughest desicions of my life right now. I cant say exactly what it is because its kinda private (ts nothing bad) but i would feel better if this was kept on the down low. thats all i can say.

the advice giver.

yes, the title says it all. I feel like im always the advice giver. i guess im good at it, but is that really my place in life? the advice giver? i feel like a counselour or something. sometimes i need advice but im the only one of my friends thats good at giving it! i mean, some of them are good at giving advice, but it doesnt really help. i give advice to people i dont even know. for example, theres this girl on twitter, who needs help. she asked me. i gave it to her. i mean i have no problem giving it, i actually like it! but who do i go to advice for??

my life; My Friends.

im just some down to earth girl living lif as best as I can with these amazing people to help me throught it.

this is one of my bestfriends, Becky. the girl i spill my heart out to.

me and my beautiful friend caley.

madison, the wonderful girl i mentioned in my first blog.

me and Hannah. she means the world to me.

my bestfriend Hannah-Grace.

siena, kiera, and me. they are amazing.

my bestfriend lauren.

kambry the beautiful.

Hannah- Grace Katherine Bieber.

Hannah-Grace is my life. She may not know it, But she has gotten me through so much. She is the light of my day, everyday. I couldnt ask for a better bestfriend. one thing I could never repay her for is when she took me to a Justin Bieber concert over the summer. so fun. we have had the best memories, inside jokes, and just plain stupid times with eachother. Hannah-Grace has serious food allergies. milk, eggs, peanuts, treenuts, mustard seed, shellfish, watermelon, cantaloupe, and the peel of peaches. so Ive had to learn how to do the epi pen thing before. the thought of sticking her with that thing is awful because I would never want to hurt her, even though that would be saving her life. I love her. thats about all I can say. shes amazing

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Micayla.

So about micayla.She was a beautiful seventeen year old girl and the biggest Christian Ive probably ever met. She was a basketball player and she was 5'11 or 5'10.  She was so inspirational and put an impact on someones life everyday. She was on the way back from a john mayer concert on a friday night, september third. She was so happy about the concert and she said it was amazing. That friday night was the first high school football game of the season. She wanted to see john mayer instead of watching the boys play. Micayla passed away on the way home that night. she was in an awful car accident. When I woke up the net morning and heard the news, I didnt know what to think.. It didnt seem real, or possible. They say bad things happen to good people. In this case, that was true. The following wednesdy was her funeral. I couldnt stop crying. I still cry to this day. She has put the biggest impact on my life and her family is so inspirational. Her mom is the leader of FCA (Fellowship of Christian Athletes) and so she is an amazing Christian true. These words were spoken from her mother at the funeral "Most people would think I wouldnt be able to get up here because I would be crying  my eyes out right now. Im trying to stay positive and look at the bright side. Were happy for micayla. Shes in the most beautiful place ever with the most amazing oeople. And our savior. we knw Micayla is safe in gods arms. we are happy." Thos words spoke to me so much. I have to look at the bright side and you can never take anything for granted because you dont relize what you have until its gone. Micayla was beautiful. I still see her light shining on each and every one of us each day.

Its Christmas. and im new at this.

so today is Christmas. favorite day of the year. Ive had a lot of fun with my family today. . Surprisingly, no fighting or arguing went on.... yet.
So im just tell a llittle bit about myself. My names alexandria. I go by alex. I have a formspring, twitter, facebook. all that good stuff. Im a huge Christian. God is my everything. Ive fallen down a lot in life but God has raised me back up and kept me steady for a while now. When I was struggling with my parents almost divorce, sisters eating disorder, and 3 million other things, I thought I would never heal and I thought that I would never be steady on my feet again. Look where I am now. Stronger christian than Ive ever been. One thing that helped me A TON is the church camp I went to over the summer. Its a local mission project. I plan on going every year until I cant anymore. I also have a boyfriend named spencer. He has been my bestfriend since pre school. so thats pretty cool.  Ive definately had a rocky past. This year was good and bad in so many ways. In september, a close friend passed away. Her name was micayla patterson. She was in a car accident on the way back from a john mayer concert on september 3rd. when I heard the news when I woke up the next morning, it didnt seem real. I never expected something like that to happen to such an amazing christian girl. But Ill get more into that later.
I have a wonderful sister named addison, coll mom and dad named david and joanne. were a very close family. I have five bestfriends. Lauren who 6000 miles away from me, Hannah-Grace, Becky, Madison, and Emily. I seriously couldnt survive without one of them. thats about it for this blog. yeeaaah.